Since I am a teacher I was able to spend the whole summer taking care of Erika. I have no idea how any mother can function going to work and taking care of a newborn! I was having trouble functioning without going to work. Being a full time mother is an incredible amount of work and very tiring. I really enjoyed having her in the summer because I could get out and walk with the stroller. For me it was the perfect time to have a newborn.
Then in September the day came when I had to go back to work. Boo hoo! It was definitely without a doubt one of the most difficult things I have ever done. And it still is! The thought of leaving her always gives me a tummy ache. I have a wonderful woman right in the same town I teach in that takes incredible care of Erika. Erika loves her and she loves Erika. Every morning right before I pull up in front of the house I get that knot in my tummy. Sometimes (at least once a week) I even have to suck the tears in. It is crazy to me that I have to pay someone to have my daughter. What a weird world!
Being that I didn't use all my maternity time in June (I only used 3 weeks), I still had time I was allowed to take. Paid time off from work that I could be with Erika! YAHOO!!! So I took November and December off to be with her. I enjoyed those two months so much and made sure I held her and played with her as much as possible. One thing I can say is that it is much more work to stay at home than to go to work. Being a Mommy is so so so much work.
Since January 2nd I have been back at work and I am still adjusting. I don't think that I will ever get used to the idea of leaving Erika everyday. One thing that helps is the HUGE smile she always gives the woman who takes care of her. At least I know she is in really good hands. And she is so close to me. Only about a minute or two from where I work.
So Basically I get up at 5:00 in the morning, and Erika gets up at 5:30. Peter feeds and changes her. At 6:00 we pack ourselves up in the car and hit the road for our 50 minute - one hour trip. At 7:00 I leave Erika to go teach all my other "children." Then when that bell rings at 2:20 I get all excited to go get my baby back in my arms! There has not been one day yet when I am not excited to go get her.
So here is Erika in her car seat all ready to hit the road and head to her sitter's house! Or better yet, all ready to hit the road and come home with MOMMY!It is difficult working and being Erika's Mommy but I don't think I would change it. I truly enjoy teaching and I enjoying keeping that part of my life alive. I think that being at work makes me such a better mother for Erika because I come home and she gets 100% of me. Where as when I am with her all day I tend to keep trying to get things done around the house. I think that working has made me appreciate her more too.
No more updates on what the next post will be...because I don't know what it will be. I am now considered UP TO DATE!!!! Thank goodness!
1 comment:
I know someone else who said the same thing about working but she too loves her job. I guess I hated my job in a sense that I don't miss it. I never really pursued anything career wise in the past 3 years because I wanted to be a mom only so maybe that is why I feel like I would never want to be in the corporate america environment again. I applaud you for loving your job and being happy!
Damiane'
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